Remind My Soul That I am Yours

        One thing I will never fully understand is the love of God.  It's something that continues to amaze me.  No matter how hard I try, I will never fully understand the love of God.  And to be honest, I am so glad that I will never fully understand it.  If I did, I would never be able to have those moments of new revelation on how much He loves me. I would never be reminded of that acceptance found in His love. I would never be reminded to stand in awe before Him. And I would never feel that fullness, that fullness that come with being reminded of how much He loves me!

        A love encounter with God has to be one of my most favourite feelings ever.  To walk into His embrace and feel His arms come around me.  To hear His promises in my ear, 'My delight, how I love you, o there is nothing that could ever separate you from my love, no matter what you do or what you say, I will always love you. I will always love you.' to hear those words, to feel those words wrap around every part of me.  O, I cannot think of a better feeling.

        Over the past week I have been reminded several times of the love God has for me.  I've been reminded in a gentle whisper.  I've been reminded in a violent shake.  And every time it has happened I am overwhelmed, there is nothing I can do but weep and be in awe that God loves me.  God loves me. Even after everything I’ve done.  Even after I choose sin over and over again, He still loves me.  He still calls me ‘His Delight’, He still smiles at me, he still wants me.

         All I can think about is His love. It’s constantly on my mind.  All I want to do is just be with Him. But with all that want, with all those feelings, I still don’t give Him full control of my life.  With all that love He gives, I still can’t give Him everything.   I still can’t seem to give Him all of me, my time, my thoughts, my feelings, my love.  And it kills me to think about it, I want to give Him everything so badly! I need him to have it all, I want him to have it all.  But still I’m held back.  Will I ever be able to fully love Him back?

     Lead me to the rock that is higher than I