I Lack Nothing

     I have conformed to a pattern of this world.  I have been believing that I need to provide for myself or else I will have nothing.  I have been depending on myself for everything I need. 

     I have been reading the book of Isaiah, and wow.  I wasn’t expecting God to show me so much so quickly.  By the second chapter God began showing me that when you have many possessions and riches you slowly stop depending on Him.  You stop depending on Him to provide what you need and you start bowing down to the things you have and the things that you don’t have.

    When I came back to Costa Rica I packed for one month, nothing more.  Here I am, a month and a half later and still in here, planning on being here for a little while longer.  One of the first thoughts I had about staying was ‘I have nothing, what am I going to do? How can I get my things from Canada to Costa Rica? How I am I going to stay here with nothing?’.  I right way began to think that I lacked.  

     Recently God told me this ‘when I provide for you, you will lack nothing’.  Immediately I began to question this.  How is this possible?  I will always need something, shampoo, new music, food, and who knows what else!  The list goes on! How can I lack nothing?  To me this seemed impossible.  But then God began to show me something, He began to speak to me.

     ‘My daughter, the things of this earth are meaningless.  When you provide for yourself you begin to create idols and then you bow down to them.  But if you allow me to be your provider you will never lack anything.  I know exactly what you need.  I will not let you go without.  If you trust me in this area you will begin to see that all you need is exactly what I give you and nothing more.  Let Me be your great Provider.’

     These words that God spoke to me began to make sense.  I will always want what I cannot have when I am providing for myself, I will never have enough.  But if I allow God to provide for me, He sees the need, He fills it and then bang, I lack nothing.  I want to know the real feeling of contentment. 

     I didn’t ever think I would be thankful for the little amount of stuff I brought with me to Costa Rica, but here I am, thanking God.  If I had brought anything else with me I might not have been able to understand this revelation that God is giving me.  I might have been too busy bowing down to the possessions that I have.  But thankfully, here I am, finding myself looking to God and feeling content, content with two weeks’ worth of clothes, a laptop, a bible and notebook, and enough shampoo for one more shower.  I have everything I need.  Thank you Lord.

‘Surely the great houses will become desolate, the fine mansions left without occupants.’  Isaiah 5:9