We
are constantly fighting. There is always
a battle going on. In our mind, our heart, even right before us in reality. I
feel like I am always fighting. The question I found myself thinking about is
what am I fighting for? Am I fighting for my own plans and desires, the desires
of my flesh? Or am I fighting for the plans and desires of the Holy One?
What
am I fighting for?
I
have found that it is so much easier to fight for the desires of my flesh then
to fight for the desires of the Holy One. I always start on the right side; listening
for Him to speak to me, to direct me, waiting for Him to plant in my heart His
plans. But once He does that. I stop listening. What happens to a solider when
He stops listening to the commands of his commander?
I
find myself only ever listening to the first command. After I hear that first
command, after He shows me a glimpse of His heart, I stop listening. I begin to
make my own plans, based off of what He has said, but I no longer leave room for His direction.
So very quickly I find myself changing sides. I find myself fighting for what I
want, for what I desire. And all too quickly I find myself fighting against the
One who I wanted to be fighting with.
“Seek,
inquire for, and require for the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him
while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his ways and the unrighteous man His
thoughts; and let him return to the Lord, and He will have love, pity and mercy
for him, and to our God, He will multiply to him His abundant pardon. For
My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, say the Lord.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your
ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.”
Isaiah 55:6-9
His
abundance of mercy and grace leave me in awe. I fight against Him so often,
most times not even realizing that I am doing it, but even then, He oh so
gently reminds me to call upon Him and that my ways, my thought are
not His.
