I don’t even know how to write this
post. I feel like in the past month I
have learned so much and haven’t had any time to sit down and think about what
it is that I am actually learning.
Something that I have learned about myself recently is that I have a teachable
spirit. I want to know people’s opinions,
I like to see what works and what doesn’t,
and I like to dig into my bible and see what God is saying about things. Having a teachable spirit is great, but
it can be hard to manage. Right now I feel like I am constantly
learning things, so many thoughts and
ideas all at one time. I feel like I learn something, then
something else, and then something else, and then the first thing I learned is
gone. All because I didn’t take the time
to sit down and allow God to teach me and shape me into what I’ve learned. I
have started to become discouraged because now I am beginning to relearn some of the same things I thought I learned a
while ago. I feel like I’m going in one big circle.
I want to change, I want to be more like
Jesus. When I become aware of something
in my life that isn’t from God I want to change it. I am always looking for those things in me
that are unclean. But I am beginning to
see that I’m constantly looking and
seeing, but not constantly working to bring change. I need to be applying the things I am
learning right way in order to bring change, but I think I was thinking that
just knowing I needed to change was enough and that eventually the change will
happen. Thankfully God is bringing this
to my attention now, so that I can bring a balance into this area.
A while ago God told me that this blog is
a good place for me to process all the things that I am learning and that I should
take advantage of it. Unfortunately I
haven’t. But thankfully it’s never a bad
time to make a change. Hopefully now
that I am aware of how teachable I am I can find a balance between learning
things and applying the things that I’ve learned. I don’t want to keep going in a circle. I want to keep moving forward and be fed new
things.
So Lord, help me to process and apply the
things that you teach me.
