It’s been a time of change. Since I had the revelation of Jesus as my lover, I realized many things in my life that needed to be changed. New habits needed to be formed and old ones needed to be broken. It hasn’t been an easy process, but where I am now is so much better then where I was before.
Recently God has been really showing me
that I am the bride of Christ. This is
something I never thought much about, I almost didn’t think it really applied
to me. But God has begun to change
this. He started by showing me that I
need to be selfless and that my life is not my own, I am not on earth to please
myself. He has created me for Himself, I
am not my own.
This concept of not being my own does not
make sense to many people. But
thankfully God has been piecing it together for me and I am beginning to
understand it better. To help me understand
God has used the image of marriage. When
you get married it’s not about what that person can do for you, it’s what you
can do for them and how you can work together.
This is something I never really thought about. Marriage is not about what you can get out of
it, it’s about what you can give. God
has begun to show me that this is what a relationship with Him is supposed to
look like. I am not in this relationship
because of what I can get, but it’s about what I can give. This is only a piece of what God has been
teaching me.
Okay, back to the Bride of Christ. This topic has come up a lot in the last
couple weeks, so I began to ask God what it really means and why it seems so
important to Him. He showed me this
verse in Ezekiel:
‘Later I passed by, and when I looked at
you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my
garment over you and covered your nakedness.
I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares
the Sovereign Lord, and you became mine.’
Ezekiel 16:8
This has been one of my biggest
revelations from God. To be completely
honest this year has been a struggle for me in the area of being single. I have been surrounded by people who are
either married, engaged or in a serious relationship and I have started to not
be content in my singleness. And I have
been fighting to focus my eyes on God and fully surrender this area of my life
to Him. But when He gave me this verse
it spoke right to my heart.
He said, “Hannah, I saw that you were old enough to
want someone to love you, so I spread my love over you and covered you. I give you my solemn oath and I am entering
into a covenant with you. You have
become mine and I have become yours.”
I can’t even tell you how much this
affected me. I am the bride of Christ. And this sounds so strange to me, but I am
the wife of Jesus. The wife. This changes everything, your whole life,
completely rearranged. My whole view of
life has changed. When you are married
you don’t look at other guys, you don’t live by yourself, and you have to think
about the other person more than yourself.
It’s all different! I didn’t
think I would be experiencing marriage yet, but I am. And this is weird to write and many people
won’t get this, but I do, I’m beginning to get it. I am
called to give everything I am to God.
Marriage was created by God not just for a man and a woman, but for man
and God and women and God.
This
is one of the most amazing revelation ever.
